Some days you almost forget how to feel. You forget for a moment that you are pushing everything down, holding it in, keeping it together so that somebody else can fall apart. It isn't your turn yet, and somehow a glimmer in time catches you off guard and you forget that...and it slips. That tight, clenching grip on every ounce of what's within you gushes up in a single beat of your heart...it feels as though it might stop beating. Your stomach flips, then disappears all together. Every inch of your body turns hot and flush. This thing suddenly fills your throat, feeling as if some man has just grabbed you against a wall. You can't shake him, can't pull far enough away, can't turn far enough... The tears tumbling down your face feel like candle wax, as if they could blister your delicate cheeks. Tears...tears are actually falling down your face. They cool slightly as they roll over porcelain skin. They land upon your shirt and you see their soon to fade tint darkening the fabric, snapping you back. Wiping feverishly and sniffling a bit as you slow your breathing you glance around looking for a hint of what to do now...but nothing. Uncertain and unsure you rise to your feet and simply go.
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